am I just like Emil Castagnier? realizations: change for the better!

this is really a tricky topic for some reason.. but I wanted to tell this to the people whom I know on the places I go nowadays..

first stop, start be more stingy this time.. I know it’s hard kung walang natitirang pera or kung konting pera lang ang natitira everytime I go home from school.. mahirap din kasi kung I’m always being generous and I sort of give a lot of money and tokens to this person whom I always get along to…

unfortunately, this thing didn’t work on my first day of school.. because, he’s still asking to me for money or tokens and he wouldn’t want just to be treated a little for my own benefit! man, how could I do this? I mean, I don’t to scold him for being asking for too much to me.. but I’m running out of thoughts..

I am really struck to what Richter said the game in Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World. He said “Courage is the magic that turns dreams into reality”. He even said that Emil should learn how to stand up for himself and speak like a man or bullies will continue to tease him if he doesn’t change and still likes passive or being quiet all the time. I realized that I’m like Emil Castagnier! Marta Lualdi even said to Emil that “C’mon, you’re a man. Speak up!”. Whoa! I am ABSOLUTELY like Emil. Sometimes I don’t usually speak unless necessary, but sometimes I don’t have to speak anymore so that nothing bad happens. I just wanted to be that way all the time, but it seems it’s really hard for me to change!

Oh no, do I still have the change? Why does most people hate me for who I am! I am not a “plastic” person, I wanted to be quiet because I don’t know what to say, I don’t know what to do and I only speak when it’s only necessary or needed. Yeah sure, I get mad usually, but I just wanted to raise my voice so that people could hear me out and at the same time, they will be aware of my emotions.

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